Ventilation method (feel free to keep scrolling)
I gotta get these words off my chest. I quite literally feel like I might be a sociopath or maybe I self diagnosed myself with a completely ridiculous and far fetched idea of what the “teen years” are about. All these movies poisoned my mind and made me think that everything is like Mean Girls or like those American high schools on a Disney show. Its not like that, well not completely; I’ve come to know that its not like the movies and that’s exactly how it should be. Though, a part of me wonders why I’m involved in the situations I’ve been exposed to and why it affects me so much. I feel like crap about 79-86% of the time and I’m so tired of everything. I’ve cried myself to sleep three times this week and at the moment, I’m crying because all I want is to be happy. Even for just an hour- hell even a single minute of some form of happiness would fly me to the moon. Am I supposed to feel this way?
Curse my awkwardness, shyness, and lack of words to say at the moments of conversation. Y’all mistake my silence as a weakness or a form of abnormality, but its just that I have so much to say and not alot of ways to say it.